Bad Nipple

Dear Sophie,

Akala ko naman, kaya you preferred to nurse directly kasi you preferred me, mali lang pala yung pag butas ni yaya ng teats mo. Sigh. gotta buy us new teats later. Uuuuy, we're going out later. But we can't go to the mall. I don't have enough cash. But don't feel sad, it's only because I've been buying you so many things. I'm going to stop buying senseless stuff now and will start saving money. With the exception of your pambahays, you have enough clothes (frilly, silly cute dresses) and shoes to last you the next 5 months, seriously.

So forgive me if all we're going to do later is hang out at Shopwise to buy you your new teats. I promise to carry you in your carrier and visit every isle. I promise to let you look at all the interesting things all you like. And most importantly, I promise not to run out of money ever again. :* Ang sarap sarap mo naman kasing bihisan e. 

Avent Medium flow nips

*update, weee. We have money. We're going to SM Sucat instead. Sucat and not SM Southmall because it's too far and I want to drive. I'm still at work, but I'm all packed ready to leave because I'm so excited to go home to see you. I didn't get to pump a lot of milk (just 5 ounces) but I'll pump when I get home. I really need to start on my brilliant business idea so I can quit my job and stay with you now, while you still like staying with me. But you know what, you and I, Im going to try to make us bestfriends. 

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Some Online Purchases

  

Fever

Dear Sophie,

I started going back to the gym and I think I may have been a bit too excited because I was all sickly Tuesday at work and had to go home early. Wednesday I was aching all over and Geraldine, a househelp, rubbed ice on my feet to help ease the pain.

I felt so helpless because all I wanted to do was sleep in, but I had you to take care of. There was your solid food that I had to prepare and you I had to feed and bathe. I am not (really) complaining, but keep in mind that before you, I did not have anyone or anything to concern myself with. I was really quite selfish. So anyway, I was in so much pain bathing you was a problem that instead of me holding you steady your yaya Letty had to take over the task. And. Oh. My. God. The Pumping of Milk. IF that is the pain other mothers complained about experiencing when they first attempted to nurse and/or pump, I can completely understand why they did not push through with it. Ok, that was me whining. The feel of the pump stretching my skin is still too fresh. I apologize.

The best part about being sick is that I get to stay at home and sleep with you, and I will never allow myself to be so sick that I will not be allowed to sleep next to you.

Somebody had asked me a few weeks ago how it was like, having you, and I told him that you are the love that I've been looking for, the one I would never tire of, or get bored with. AT the risk of this sounding a lot like a cheap song, I know now what love is.

And again, I love you.

Insurance

Dear Sophie,

We got your Insurance card today :)

I miss sleeping next to you.

Back to work

Dear Sophie,

It's Monday, and your grandparents are back. Which means that I am writing this update from my office. I am missing you terribly. When I first came back from my maternity leave, it didn't hurt so much, because all you did then was eat and sleep. We didn't play and snuggle much. The past five nights we spent together you were cuddled up on me. I especially love how you look when you fall asleep nursing. Though you're surrounded by love right now, sleeping with your lolo and lola, I'm sure you're missing me too.

Your rubberducky

Sophie

I love you.

Carousel

Dear Sophie,

Your grandparents are in Davao, so I've been on leave since Wednesday night. We haven't been able to do much except:

1. Reopen my account (the one that closed because I forgot that I emptied it out after giving birth.)
2. Settle online account stuff I bought for you. We have been buying a lot. I'm scheduled to go to Divi on the weekend of the 15th to look at items I could sell online.
3. Pick up my handy dandy new phone from Smart. Samsung Monte - which I will sell because I'd rather use the money. I have the bestest phone in the world (SE G700) and I don't want to have to learn new commands again.
4. Organize the shoe closet so when it comes time to transform it into your closet, it will be easier.

I like sleeping next to you. I like pulling you close to me and sniffing the back of your head. I like the way you cuddle - you put your leg over mine. These are the things I will miss when I start going to work again, but things that will keep me home on weekends.

Friday while I was doing my banking I left you at the 6F office, where I think you charmed our friends there.  After that we went to Festival and I bought a few things, picked up my phone, and rode the carousel. We took pictures, and I was sure they were saved, but I couldn't find them when I uploaded my phone pics this afternoon - I used my phone cam bec the cam is with lola and lolo.

I am so looking forward to going to Disneyland with you when you hit 3.